Hello, here's an important message first: IF you HAVE BEEN struggling, are RIGHT NOW or may in the FUTURE, or know someone like that, then PLEASE take a look at this page with information about HELPLINES and words from someone who HAS used one.
Please be in a safe place and safe state of mind when viewing this website.
Be one more to say: "I SURVIVED"
My last edit on this website was in January 2015
Please reach out to that someone TODAY.
But whatever happens, keep trying.
There are other numbers and other people.
It will take as long as it takes, to get the right help.
BUT YOU'RE WORTH IT.
Please take a look to the the right,
or on the links page for details of some who are here.
Are things not going well for you? DONT beat yourself up for that. REMEMBER THE FIRST STEP IS TO SURVIVE. And if you can read this WELL DONE— B safe 1st always (@bsafe1stalways) March 15, 2015
Well its now January 2015 and yep I'm still here :) This website has been going for over five years now. I've done some updating, and there are some more bits to come. I've had a bit of a clear out and clear up to make it easier to just quickly browse (for some). And for the others who wish to take a more in depth look, all the main information about my experience within the system is still here (mostly via the Failed by the System page, with other pages linked to from there) for those interested.
Hope, its just one word. And it may seem a small one. But its why many are still here.
Grasp it when ever you can. Cling to it. Do what you have to.
And when there seems like there is no hope... HANG ON IN THERE
so you're still with us, for when it does return.
An introduction to the site:
My names John Harrison and this site has been going for over 5 years now. Originally failings in the system that I encountered led me to speak out, and have to speak publicly. The core content of the website is around child abuse / mental health. There has always been a combination of things, that I wanted the website to do. I wanted others to be aware of the rest of us with the same issues, to at least let them know that they are not alone in what they go through or have gone through. I wanted the website to expose some of the wrongdoings which it did.
There is no content on this site, nor ever has there been, that is in any way inappropriate. BUT, some people are more vulnerable than others. And that's why there are links in the right sidebar on this website, to show some organisations that may be able to help. OR, show that for every issue, there may well be a helpline, charity or organisation out there for you. They don't always work for everybody, this I know. All links to them here, are not put there for the organisations or charities, they are ONLY put there by me, in the hope that they MAY help someone. IF they don't, please hang on in there.
IF you are someone who wants to learn more about the failings in the system I encountered, and about the campaigning I did, then click 'FAILED by the System' to start to find out more. IF not, have a general look around. Recent changes I have and will make, will help people more easily make a choice as to what they want to look at.
CHECK OUT 'Situation... Distress' one of many things that shouldn't have happened, as my situation was made worse while in severe mental distress.
B safe 1st always... that IS the message.
'Raising awareness of the consequences of child abuse in later life'
NONE of the letters on this website from GP's are from my current GP Practice. I have attended several since. My last GP practice was not involved in any of the things I wrote about on this website, ALL of which happened years BEFORE I went to that GP practice. But sadly it is true that things did not improve. And as of June 2015 I had to change and start at a new practice, and I hope things will improve.
I BELIEVE in the NHS. In May 2014, while having to undergo a procedure at Winchester Hospital I was frightened, and an NHS Nurse gently squeezed my hand. This is what the NHS and staff are all about, care and compassion. Also in June 2015 at both Winchester Hospital Cardiology Department and days later a nurse from Basingstoke Hospital Cardiac Unit I was shown care and compassion. Despite my bad experiences I do not forget that. THEY are the NHS we want to save.
You will never meet someone who believes in the NHS more. BUT, that is why, when things are not right, we need to speak up and out. It is the bad people I have fought against, some good were caught in between them for sure. One day I hope that along with the good people in the NHS, we can stand TOGETHER and rid the NHS / GP's of anyone mistreating any vulnerable people. It is not me or people like me, who undermine it, it is the bad people.
Here's a little guide to what to expect on each page of this website:
'HELPLINES' I know it explains itself, but its a very important page to mention. This page shows why helplines are so needed. PLEASE share them online, you never know who may see it, and need it.
'Books' a selection of just a few books on child abuse mainly by survivors themselves.
'Guest Poems' has four poems by other survivors that I was proud to have been allowed to share and make a video for.
'Child Abuse Monument' the monument is in Canada, it gives more info about it.
'Raising Awareness' talks and shows some videos about raising awareness of child abuse and its consequences in later life.
'FAILED by the system' this page links to several very detailed pages on the failings in the system I endured, including within and by healthcare professionals. It also links to several detailed pages on the campaign and raising awareness that I then did, about these failings. I started Writing to MP's, PM, the Queen and more. I have recently separated all these relating pages, so they can be accessed by this one page. It helps to keep it away from you, IF you're in a vulnerable place, and you can avoid all this if you need to. All the pages this one links to, are VERY IMPORTANT to me. And where a very big part of me speaking out.
As someone being #abused OR who was. YOU have the RIGHT to be away from people (ANYONE) making it worse for you Despite what some may say :(— B safe 1st always (@bsafe1stalways) March 15, 2015